I’d be lying if I didn’t share I had to google the definition of manifesto, because I wasn’t entirely sure I understood what it meant. Merriam Webster defines manifesto as a written statement declaring publicly the intentions, motives and or views of its issuer. I thought I would have to sit and google a phrase, because I was even more unsure if I was living a manifesto than I was defining it. However, by surprise I remembered I did have an ulterior motive in almost everything I do, and that’s “con amor, siempre.”
If you follow me on instagram, you’ll notice those words as the only thing on my bio, followed by a dog and flower emoji, and “suisen” in hiranga for the flower my name comes from, daffodils.
Con amor, siempre means with love, always.
This is something I think I’ve had the intention of acting out since my sophomore year of college. During this time of my life I had started to build a relationship with God and the church, but despite my beliefs now being more spiritual than Christian, something that really captivated me was the continuous message of love above all, even above faith.
Corinthians 13:13 Three things will last forever–faith, hope, and love–and the greatest of these is love.
This was a big deal to me, because I never felt “blessed” to have faith. I am still in a complicated journey of understanding what having faith truly means, because in my life time, I have unfortunately seen that “having faith” has been a motive to do lot of wrong to a lot of people. Which perplexes me further to analyzing 1 John 4:8, Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love.
God is Love.
That is what I left the church understanding, and that is what drives every thing I have ever done since then to this day. It is extremely difficult to argue with good intentions, to hear another’s opinion who I find ethically immoral and to want to understand them with love, to listen to others, laugh with others, disagree with others, all with love. When people use the bible and their faith to disapprove and hate on another human being, for their sexuality, gender identity, culture, race, age, anything, I want to face palm so hard and shove 1 John 4:8 down their throats…(with love of course, with love.) Because if they are not loving another human, I do not believe they are “knowing God” the way they say they are.
To love is to accept, to care, to cherish, to grow, to understand and I think it’s safe to assume Christian or not you may have heard 1 Corinthians 13:4-8, Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
I’d like to one day read and look further into the message and theme of love inside the scriptures, which seems to be the undoubtedly to me be the main motif of the Christian bible; because I see too many self proclaimed dishonoring self seeking delighting in evil folk who claim they understand God’s love, especially this past year under the new political climate.
Personally, to do all things with love keeps me sane. I have noticed I have always been very quick to forgive from a young age, I do not hold on to grudges, remorse or regrets. When I serve with students, the demographic I will continue to work with in this lifetime, I try to do it with love. Everything that happens to me, good and bad, I challenge myself to react con amor. Especially when it feels harder to do so, I find that this is when I have to love harder. I find myself cursing under my breath and saying “that definitely wasn’t reacting with love…,” because this manifesto is one I have to consciously work towards every single day, especially lately, but I believe doing things with love, always, is a method to understanding each other authentically for progress and change.
Con amor, siempre.